Inquisitive only begins to describe my son Garrett as a preschooler. Too often the answers to his questions were beyond me. The most frustrating questions camewere when driving in the car and Garrett would ask “Where is that man going?” Confused, I saw Garrett was pointing to a stranger in the car next to us. How was I supposed to know where a complete and total stranger was going? So at first I replied “I don’t know.” But the same question continued for car after car so I started making up answers. “He’s going to the grocery store” “That man’s going to the playground.” After all, he was three. Making up answers is not the greatest parenting technique but sometimes maternal sanity is a priority.
It makes me wonder, when I ask God questions, do I sound like an inquisitive 3 year old? After all, there was nothing wrong with Garrett’s question it’s just that neither Garrett nor I had a large enough perspective to know where the guy was going. Instead, we sat in my 4 door blue impala with lots of questions and no answers. Garrett’s questions sounded childish but the pain from unanswered questions from God is all too real.
“Why did they loose their job?”
“Why did they have to die now?”
“Why didn’t you protect me?”
“If you love me why won’t you heal me?”
“Why am I still alone?”
Unlike me and my marginal parenting skills, God doesn’t make up answers to satisfy us. God never lies but to understand the answers we have to see things from a much larger view than we’re capable. We need God’s view.
God’s view? Now that certainly does not seem possible, and it’s not- not on this earth. But 1 Corinthians 13:12 tells us that in heaven we will know things completely. The verse says, “Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.” Think about that. Here on earth, we only see things of God partially but in heaven? That’s a whole different story. Then we will see God face to face and know the complete story of everything that’s happened. It seems unbelievable but it’s true.
Today, you may not see any good reason for the hardships and tragedies in your life. And if God does have an answer to your question, you’re confident, you’re not going to like it! But in heaven, the answers will make perfect sense. Imagine being in heaven, filled with wonder and understanding and thinking “Now I see! Now it all makes sense. Of course there was that incredibly painful thing in my life. I understand it all so fully now, I wonder why I couldn’t see it before?”
One day we will have understanding but today what we have is faith. Faith means believing God has it under control even when we can only see things poorly, like in a mirror. One day all things will be clear. Until then friend, believe. Hold on to your faith and believe.